Thursday, January 29, 2009

John Updike

John Updike is one of those writers I thought he died a long time ago. Then I was delighted to discover current contributions in THE NEW YORKER. I’m reading one of his novels right now. I don’t know the cosmic implications of reading someone’s work at the time of his death. I very much hope that I receive some spirit of his skill!

Updike had the career I want, and equally covetable craft and talent to match his publishing prowess. I’ve read hundreds of his short stories and found him a marksman in every one—clean, distinct lines of character, imagery, and plot all snarled into the corner of a conflict. He writes children well, and adults, and does feeling and apathy.

I’m not a natural reader, which gives me the ability of query agents to decide in three pages I’m not interested in a book. I only read a book if I can’t help it. I can’t help reading Updike. I don’t feel myself reading when I’m holding his book, it isn’t work, and I don’t know how I push other things aside to make room for him, but I do. His writing is good; it simply happens. He has the delicacy of pen to say things like in COUPLES when Piet Hanemas digs one shovelful of a hamster’s grave to make it adequate; he digs two shovelfuls to make it deep. There, you feel the sadness, the guilt, the sin against the innocence. That’s the kind of writer Updike is.

Surely if you could die of writing, John Updike had the volume to do it. I can only hope he enjoyed smoking half as much as writing. The bad news is that John Updike is dead. The good news is that he wrote so much, he will live for years with me.

Please accept my sincere condolence to all those who mourn him.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Inauguration

I was in Washington for the inauguration, at least via satellite, watching from a VA clinic. It was cold in there too, just like D.C. The windows were loose, and the wind found its way through them. A staff worker brought in two space heaters, brand new, out of the bags, out of the boxes, and plugged them in. “I just bought these,” she explained, “out of my own pocket.”

The House of Representatives was being brought in, and we started seeing images of former presidents arriving. George Bush Senior was tottering with a cane, Jimmy Carter looked younger than Bill Clinton, and Ted Kennedy looked terrific.

Two old veterans were cracking jokes and a third one wheeled in on a motorized chair, the control lever mounted on the left. He said arthritis in his right thumb was so bad, they’d mounted the controller on the left. He said arthritis was pretty bad there too, and they really should have mounted the lever in the middle, indicating he could steer with his penis.

The three old veterans looked around to see who was laughing.

“See, they’ve got a sense of humor,” said one of them.

“That’s all we have left at our age,” said another, “is humor!”

“No, we’re rich!” said the man in the motor chair. “We’ve got silver in our hair, gold in our teeth, and our stomachs are full of gas!”

I didn’t realize how much warmer the room had become. Those heaters didn’t seem like they were doing a thing against the cold at the windows. Another staff member came in, frowned at each heater in turn, felt their foreheads like they might be very sick. Then she pulled the plug on each of them and removed them from the waiting room. It got very cold again.

The former presidents were announced. No one seemed to know where Hillary Clinton was going to sit. She looked like a radiant bluebird, ready to fly and sing, kick Bill Clinton in the nuts if she had to for her Secretary of State confirmation.

Malia and Sasha appeared, gracious, smaller versions of their mother, decorated in jewel-tone fleece; soft, easy smiles, the breeze caressed their hair as they stepped into place, their childhood staunchly guarded by their grandmother.

The three old veterans were still chattering jokes. A woman walked in, pulling plugs off a tangerine. She’d eaten half of it, and the other half was still encased in its shell.

The vice presidents arrived, and then the presidents. Feinstein got up and began to run the ceremony.

The woman with the tangerine shushed up the three veterans with the dirty smiles. Two of them went out and sat by the elevators. It was probably warmer there. The third one in the motor chair got called for his appointment.

Joe Bidden was sworn in on the Ark of the Covenant. Barack Obama baubled his oath over the Lincoln Bible, trying faithfully not to split an infinitive on the Constitution. But in-between, there was that beautiful moment. In-between the swearing of the Vice President and the swearing of the President, when Yo-Yo Ma and Itzhak Perlman held the moment on a string, all the grandeur of John Williams spilled off the movie screen, onto what is real, heroic, thunderingly momentous, and Williams provided pause more powerful than the invocation. He gave a moment where over one million people gathered on the National Mall, and millions more around the world, in peace, allowing the magnitude of what was happening to sink in quietly, with a solemn start, gathering in the Puritan roots, and embellishing with larger themes of what America has become and continues to grow into.

Later I ate lunch on the Devil’s Elbow on the St. Johns River. I ordered seafood stew, a brace of American fowl, and an apple sponge cake. They didn’t have those. I pretty much settled for catfish and cheese grits, but that’s okay, because that’s America too.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Surprise?

When my father said that one of the graduate students had a sex change and was now to be addressed by the feminine form of his name, I thought: there it is, then, it’s a thing that is and is going to be. I mean certainly my father introduced this as a shock, but we were in the 1970’s. Everything in the 1970’s came on a continuous line of shocks, spooling off the 1960’s. This was just another phenomenon to be absorbed into normality, barely worth mentioning in two years. I thought I’d know gender-altered people like you know straight folks. So really, it comes as no surprise that Barack Obama is elected President.

I’m too young to know about the Civil Rights Movement first hand. For me, I grew up thinking tension between black and white people was all settled and it really didn’t matter anymore. With respect, I think the achievement means more than the struggle. I’m only surprised that this election didn’t happen a long time ago.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Christmas Break

My problem with the Jehovah’s Witness Program is that there are no holidays. I mean some days are just crap. They are. Try as you might to catch a carpe dieum, your net is empty. So it’s nice to set aside a few days in a year, when you can say, hey, I’m going to be happy this day. Despite all other days, on this day, I’m going to be happy.

I love Christmas, and birthdays, and Halloween, and Thanksgiving. Christmas is just like in WHO-ville, where no one can take it away. Even when your kid breaks his arm first thing in the morning on his brand new Santa present, you go to the ER for a little while (doesn’t take long that early in the morning), then you come home to twenty-plus friends and relatives, and relatives and friends swarming around your house. Despite that you’ve called everyone and told them not to come yet, they’ve come anyway! They’ve arrived while you were at the ER and set out food and games and laughter…well, that was my Christmas.

No matter what happens, Christmas is coming and I can count on it. Thanks to everybody who came to my house on December 25th and made it a very merry day indeed.